Dusk

Looks like I'm becoming a Lovecraft fan.
I started reading it to understand the spirit of Nightmare Circle, though looks like not all NMC fans even read the actual texts or did it much...

Well, I just like it. Wiki'ed it as well, and found that the "Beyond Re-Animator" movie is based on it! So that's why I so much liked it! I got it occasionally long ago because the price was affordable and I thought the main character looks attractive (gosh, I love smart men!), and then I found I like it a lot. You know, all those walking corpses, mad eyes, blood all around, the whole dismemberment thing, especially that bitten off piece of male anatomy;-) That was just hilarious;-) And it crawled around by itself! *giggle*

These thoughts make me hungry, but the upcoming lunch is not much inspiring as it's just three eggs and nothing else *sigh* But for dinner I'll have fried liver with spaghetti and ketchup, and tea with jam, or maybe with Russian fudge. I'll be cooking liver tonight, yay! Meat and blood! Yum!

Money situation is upsetting and will remain like that till 11th December *sigh*, well, my own fault, nobody's else. Can't buy anything till Tuesday, but even then will have very few cash, as there are too many things to pay for. Including the last in this year bellydance lesson, the new bellydane music CD, and the head scarf that I want, it's very jingly. Hopefully I'll be able to get some more nice liver, otherwise will have to go with more expensive meat.

Funny thing about reading Lovecraft is that I got an inspiration for a wonderful larp character... But it will be too complicated to make as I'll need to be attached to another player, strongly preferably male, with a particular character... This could make a perfect Ravenholme option, alas...

Life is a bloody difficult thing.
My appartment hunting goes very bad, and I feel extremely unhappy about that. The building manager to whom I spoke yesterday didn't sound happy, he still didn't find anything around, and I looked myself, bloody fucking nothing... The places they can offer are unsuitable to live in. I just want too much. Very capricious, yeah... I may end up with paying too much, but I really don't wanna go to small cramped hovels which they dare to call "apartments to rent". Too many stuff with two bedrooms - but I need one, or studio maybe... Well, there is some stuff around, and the manager said he'll be talking to someone today and will call me later.
I don't like living in this world. It's expensive. No sense.

Ah, yeah, photos:
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/llaheira/album?.dir=915bscd&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/ph//my_photos
and
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/llaheira/album?.dir=9519scd&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/ph//my_photos

Lots of things are going very well, but I'm still unhappy and complaining... Probably something is wrong with me....

Update: talked to my parents on the phone. Things are going very well. I'm alive again. Animal with claws. Russian bear. Big claws, yeah...