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Net is the source of horros.
If you don't have a boyfriend it's unlikely to be because you are fat or think that you are fat (second option is much more wide-spread).
The poor girl was 163 cm tall with 58 kilos weight, now she's 165 tall, weights 40 kilos, but still has some fat left on the belly, so she's gonna lose more weight. Ah, yeah, - she eats very healthy - milk, coffee, yogurt, a bit of veges and fruits.
Yeah, the problem is in attitude. But unfortunately dealing with this attitude requires individual approach. Smart advices from the Net are often really smart, but it's difficult to see if your radio has a different wave on...
P.S. Not forget to buy milk, not forget to buy milk! I wanna make pancakes for dinner, but have no milk. Maybe need to get more strawberry jam too...

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Grrrrr!
I need distraction again, not to fall back to the depression.
There are no reasons for it, in fact, there is more reason for joy as I seem to become slightly less fat than I was several months ago.
But this is a beast that has too many teeth to let you go easily, and when you think you got freed from it you suddenly find that half of the teeth are still stuck in your flesh.

So let's talk more about cuffs. Whatever. Just not to think of the bloody 67 kilos.

Ok, 65.5, tending to move towards 65, but it's still in recent limits... In fact, all above 62 is in recent limits...
I love stephanie_pegg! She reminds me of grapefruits for slimming!
How could I forget about them? In fact, it's one of the very well-known things that are said to really help.
Bought a grapefruit today and already eaten it. Minding the price, I think I can afford eating them every day, if be careful with other food.
Schi soup is going very well. My Mom is incredibly happy about it.
Yay for weather! I walked after work today. In whole 2.5 hours of walking, half of what I need, but well, next week the weather is promised to be ok, so hopefully I can walk as much as possible.
Didn't get to train with hoop today (that thing for waist slimming), but will get back to it for sure.

Got rid of 1 kilo, but it's not really "got rid", it's the stuff which goes up and down all the time. I couldn't go under 66 for a long time. Recently got to 65.5, but then back to 67...
The best result in NZ was 62, but it was about a year ago.
I need to walk more, damn it!!!
The weather spoils my slimming. I hate it.

I found how this thingy is called - low-rise jeans!
Now I know how the hell it's called what they have in all the stores;-)))
This is what Holy Wiki says:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lowrise_jeans

However, this article has a very upsetting part, which is just racism against white women. I made a post on Diatribe about that, trying to be polite, but in my own LJ I don't have to be extremely tolerant.

The fact is, some bone-loving bastard or a skinny non-white bitch made stupid remarks about white women looking bad in low-rise jeans as they are not as skinny as "african american, caribbean and hispanic".
This is crap and rubbish because:
Lots of white women are thin.
Lots of black women are fat. As well as "caribbean and hispanic".
In fact, the only really slim race is Asian. Asians have an extremely low number of fat people. I'm serious, when you look at them you can easily see it.
But they don't wear low-rise jeans, they are too modest for it;-)

Racism all around, damn it.

By the way, just being thin doesn't make a woman beautiful, as well as being fat doesn't  make her ugly.
It's much more than that.

Update: I love Ryan! He removed that thingy from the article! Yay-yay-yay!

I'm pretty often looking at ediet.ru site, it's a russian site, a big one,  all about getting rid of the fat, and it's not actually about diets only, but exercises, and "stories of success", and other interesting stuff.
They recently had a very interesting article there about a research some ladies did in one of Russian Universities, and they found amazing differences between the attitudes of fat people and thin people, which actually results in very different behaviours.
Ok, here are the results they gave there, just in short (but very impressive!)



Reading this I thought - bloody hell, this is so much tru!!!
I printed the article to have it with me. It's really nice research.

Reading Friends Page can give you sometimes really unexpectable things.
I've suddenly got a new inspiration!
Yay-yay-yay!
I've made a post which is one year forward-dated, and I've put a nice picture there from the site to where I linked from </a></b></a>janetlin's profile. Gosh, people have lots of incredibly interesting stuff in their profiles!

So, from now on I'll be really serious about Gettin Rid Of The Stuff I Don't Need.
I don't like term "loosing weight" as well as "gaining weight". They are stupid terms!
Anyone would want to gain something and wouldn't want to loose something.
So, in fact, these terms are deeply depraved.

I found that I need to get rid just of 15 kilos of fat, that will bring me back to normal weight that I had back in University.
Before someone (particularly starfirenz, as she already told me that) can say that you can't keep same weight with years, I would say that the only reason I got that fat was the critical change of lifestyle and especially food. It was not because of any natural reason, so I know this fat layer all around is bloody unnatural.
And my body suffers from it.
So I'm gonna get rid of it, then I can feel good again and not wrinkle and twitch every time I see my reflection.
I even got a bit drunk because of being so happy with understanding at last how to do things.

P.S. I hate my Internet and my browser. They are doing strange things.
P.P.S. Evil spirits live in my house. One of them lives in my little sauce-pan. It boils water in a weird way, than it suddenly almost explodes and splashes boiling water all around. And I'm trying to cook my lunch for tomorrow!!! Took a bigger pan, not that convenient, but safe.

Fat tends to spread all around the body. So it's not only gathering in one or two places, as it's said in many highly intelligent articles, but it's all around, just everywhere.